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The Secret of Life May 2, 2012

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My grandmother very recently passed away, and with her passing, I cannot help but be introspective… My life was greatly impacted by her life, and my heart has been greatly impacted by her death. Sleep hasn’t come easily over the last five days. Every time I close my eyes to rest, old pictures and memories begin to flood my mind, and inevitably I begin to think about all the things I am going to miss about her.  But even more than that, I begin to mull over how harsh the reality of death really seems… One minute you are a living, breathing, seemingly important person and the next you are just a memory. And who knows, in two generations, you may be forgotten altogether… Just a box of pictures of people in your family tree who may intrigue you but whom you do not know.  We even spend so much time and effort trying to preserve what cannot be preserved.  These bodies we have are temporary, at best… But even in death, we embalm, put makeup on, and dress up trying to make the dead appear alive.

This is the first family death we have had since I have become a mother, and this time has been much more difficult to process because I’ve been trying to explain things in a kid-friendly way to Brinson.  So, in trying to help him understand the reality of death, I have had to internalize things so much more in order to explain them appropriately.  But in internalizing things, God has taught me a very important/revolutionizing point.  In a Shane and Shane song that I like it says, “Solomon, wisest one tell me what you have found, under the sun… under the sun… he answered… GET OVER, GET OVER, GET OVER YOURSELF.”  For years I have wondered what that really meant, and then early this morning, while I tried to sleep, but could only replay the events of the last few days, it hit me.

This life is a vapor… like I was saying earlier, it is crazy how quickly we pass from a person to a memory, and I feel like asking, “what is it all for?” It feels like we are nothing… But that is precisely why it is so important– a necessity– to put your trust in Christ.  He is the only one who transcends time. If our hope, our identity, is found in Christ, then our lives are truly capable of having real meaning. Otherwise, we invest in what cannot be preserved, and once it is gone, it is gone forever.  What a sad reality that is.  But investing in Christ, and putting effort in making Him known to those around us is the only thing that has true meaning because He is the only one who continues to live on and is not capable of just becoming a memory.  Even the grave couldn’t hold Him!

And so, throughout the last 5 days, I feel like in my grandmother’s death I have discovered the secret of life. It’s Jesus. The reality of the cross and what Jesus did on the cross is life… and even in death, for the one who believe in Jesus as the Rescuer, Redeemer, and Savior… death is only the beginning of life. So, now I understand that the Shane and Shane song I referenced earlier is referring to the fact that if you only focus on you and what cannot be preserved, you have missed the point of life.  GET OVER YOURSELF…

“For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing. But to those of us who are being saved, it is the power of God.”  1 Cor. 1:18


The day I had a policer officer draw his weapon on me February 1, 2012

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Coming out blog retirement wearing the 4 – 5

Went to Lubbock for doctor appt. and didn’t tell my mom n law we were coming earlier in the day.  She got a new alarm system two weeks ago and we forgot about it. Walk and alarm goes off and ashley has the wrong code.  She calls her mom gets the right code by now.  The alarm is going nuts. I turn the alarm off.  While I was turning it off a voice talked to me and i thought it was a computer voice.  So i cancelled it because the alarm was off.  Well ashley puts rylan down for a nap and leaves for Hobby Lobby (surprise).  Ashley leaves through the front door that doesn’t latch well in the first place and surprise it doesn’t latch (I didn’t know that it didn’t latch).  Brinson and I ate a snack and got some water.  Then all of sudden we hear two people yelling “Lubbock Police Lubbock Police!!! Get your hands up” (guns drawn) So I put my hands up and Brinson runs through the living room.

What I had done was cancelled a live person on the alarm system which then they alerted the police.  My mom n law didn’t pick her phone up when they called her and the 2nd emergency number was Ashley’s grandpa who didn’t know what was going on.  By the time my mom n law cancelled with the security system company the Lubbock Police had my hands in the air.  It also didn’t help the door didn’t latch well and it looked like a break in when the police showed up.

We talked it all out and then they started to do back track on having their guns drawn as Brinson ran through the living room.  I told the officer that they were doing their job.

So many people have asked well how did Brinson handle this?  Well as I was being interrogated (exaggerating they were very cordial) the female officer was waving and I look behind me and Brinson is being a bear and growling.  He had no clue what had just happened.  Then when I told him I appreciated him not freaking out he begins to tell me ” I was shot by the guy police officer”.  I told him no one shot you and they put their guns down.  It also helped that Rylan was woken up by loud yelling and was crying from the other room.  It helped sell my situation with the officer.

I promise this is a true story.  I can relate better to Jay-Z now, I got 99 problems …..


Juxtaposition of Loss and Praise August 16, 2011

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Frank Clark once said, “The most important thing that parents can teach their children is how to get along without them.” Based upon this quote, I’m not sure Mr. Clark is/was a believer in Christ, because although this is an important aspect of parenting, it is hardly the most important thing to teach your children.  Today is the 15th anniversary of my father’s passing… As December 7th, 1941 will forever live as a “day of infamy” for the US, so August 16, 1996 lives as a day of infamy for the Breuer family.

It’s a curious thing, this idea of death… On one hand, for the believer it is complete freedom from the bondage of humanity into the open praise and adoration of the One who saves. An opening of an eye to actually see this One we have believed in by faith alone. On the other hand, for those who are left behind to mourn the loss of the person who has passed, it is a strange juxtaposition of feeling a black hole of mourning, all-the-while, praising God with hope because we know how blessed our loved one is in heaven. We long to see them again, but don’t dare ask that they leave their new home to come back to this broken home.

Today, although still sobering for me to remember the events of 15 years ago, I have a burdened heart for some friends and acquaintances who are currently dealing with the mortality of very close loved ones.  A lump inevitably wells up in my throat because I know the pain they will endure, and are currently enduring, and believe me… it is absolutely NO fun. I am comforted by the thought that Jesus himself entered into the grief of  Lazurus’ family when Lazurus died, and I know he does the same for us. It is times like these that I become painfully aware of the truth that this is not how God intended our world to be. Had sin not shattered the full, harmonious, perfect world God originally created, pain and the bitterness of loss would not have occurred. Death would not have been an issue. But, as it stands, God had to send a Rescuer to right the wrong. Thankfully, the sting of death is no more, but the reality of earthly death is still a daily struggle.

Fifteen years later, I am thankful for the way my father invested in me. I can still remember times he took to pull me aside and teach me something he felt was important. I do the same for my boys. He was ready to pounce on “teachable moments” no matter when they came, and I will forever be thankful for those lessons. As I have said before, he taught me a life’s worth of lessons in 13 short years.

Last night I was laying in bed, and I was thinking of him. I can still remember what it felt like to slip my small hand into his large, capable, rough hands. He was a hard worker, and his hands showed that, but they were always soft in their touch… I suspect because when he held my hand, there was evidence of his love for me.  Even though memories fade, and details fade, there are so many things that are still so fresh in my mind.

I guess in sense, my dad did prepare us to live without him, but that was hardly the most important lesson he taught. He modeled how to love Jesus, how to love his wife and family, and how to stand up for what is right, no matter the cost. He was inspirational in life and continues to be inspirational in death.

So today, the juxtaposition continues in that, today was a bitter and heartbreaking day 15 years ago… a life-changing day that I would have preferred not to have happened at all, some days. However, I know that God has worked it out in a way that has continually glorified His name, and in the process sanctified me to make me more like Him. So was it all worth it? A resounding YES… Painful, heartbreaking, hard… but worth it.


What was read this week…. February 13, 2011

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What was read this week…

I am always a fan of Jason Whitlock and this week he brought the heat on the lack of responsibility of NFL players and how it effects the CBA …

Dan Le Batard (Bam!) writes a great sporting news piece on sport journalism and how is changing the game probably for the worse …

NFL Hall of Fame…fight

These sports writers are fighting like a bunch of sixth grade girls over a Justin Bieber poster.  It started with another Whitlock article and then it got ugly…

Then Len Pasquarelli took offense and started calling Whitlock an idiot.. … Apparently having an opinion is offensive.


Great read about bailouts…Yeah I know it is a little late but great read by two economists … Becker … and Posner … .  This was a homework reading for my economic class.

Everyone likes to talk about outrageous profits for health insurance companies but this blog puts into perspective what these “outrageous” profits really truly are…

I guess this weeks reading consisted a heavy dose of sports and economics.  Have a good one….


What I read February 6, 2011

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I am going to start something new and link to the things I read this week that I found interesting.  Maybe, I will be more consistent with this idea, than others in the past.  I hope you enjoy.

This is just worth the headline alone …

Great article on National Budget by John Stossel.  I am hit and miss on how I feel about Stossel …

This is worth the picture alone …

To get you ready for the Super Bowl this is a great profile on the Steeler’s head coach Mike Tomlin …

Well, these are just a few but hopefully it improves as the weeks go on.  Have a great Sunday.


Christmas / Birthday List December 7, 2010

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Dear Gift Buyers –

You have two days to go out and buy me a present for my birthday so you better hurry.  Here is what is on my list.

Birthday/Christmas List –

Thermos brand water canister

Bridgestone golf balls e6 – very important because it is 3 piece ball with an anti-spin layer, which helps with my slice.

Amazon or gift card

and the big thing…Money and the reason is because I taking 7 hours of Economic graduate classes this spring and I am not taking a student loan out for these classes.


If you need my stocking list just comment and I will add that also.


Hopefully you all know that I am being sarcastic but I just wanted to break out of my blog drought….


Health Update / Prayer Request June 4, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — babyboymartin @ 10:36 am

I apologize it has been awhile since I have blogged but we had a very busy April and May.  So…My Bad…  I wanted to give every one (the two who read this) a medical update on my  health.  I did a pace maker check late April and the hospital called and told me that it was a good pacemaker check and that I don’t need another pacemaker check until I go for my annual check up in August.  In addition, to good pacemaker news I also received good blood work results four weeks ago.  I was having to get my blood work checked every other week and now I have to get it checked once a month which is really nice.  I am very thankful and blessed that God has sustained my heart for the last five months.  I am hoping to go to my annual appointment in August and I am anticipating a good result from the doctor.

Time for prayer requests.

My sister –  As i am writing this blog she has already finished her state boards for nursing and we are praying for good results and thankful that she will be done with tests for awhile.

Seventh Grade math teacher – Little weird that I am asking for prayer request for my seventh grade math teacher but she is the mother to one of my wife’s good friend who was also my seventh grade math teacher.  She is donating one of her kidney’s to her cousin.  They are going to have to travel across America for this procedure and having to live in that state for pretty much the month of June.  Her procedure is June 8th and if you would lift her up that would be great.

I am taking a Sales Management graduate level class for summer 1 and I will probably not be consistent on updating my blog.  I appreciate everyone reading and lifting me and these other individuals up to God in prayer.