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Eclipsed By Grace January 31, 2010

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We are a week out from all the madness and the normalcy we prayed for has returned.  There is much joy in daily routines and little habits!  Ben has not had any episodes of arrhythmia over the past week, and we continually praise the LORD for holding his heart in His hands and regulating his rhythm.  Ben has been able to work this week and was even lovingly able to serve as transporter for a group of high school boys at our church’s Disciple Now this weekend.

And with that beloved normalcy comes church on Sunday mornings.  What a privilege it was to step into the house of the LORD today and get a moment, in the stillness and focused quiet, to say thank you again to the LORD for what He has done in our lives.  I know I sit here, virtually on the other side of a scary three weeks and say that I praise the LORD, but the truth of the matter is that I praise the LORD because of the scary three weeks.  As a believer, I am no stranger to adverstiy, trials, and hardships, but part of the beauty of being a believer is that there are joy in those moments because if we choose to focus on the LORD, we will find that we are being shaped and formed to be more like Jesus, we are being made stronger clay by being fired in intense heat, and sometimes, we are being pulled out of situations we put ourselves into, and being pulled out can be quite painful.  All in all, today in worship, I was reminded of just how much Christ loves us.

Through the words of one of my favorite songs of worship, I was moved with the reminder that in all things, the appropriate response is to move TOWARD Jesus… He is our hope.  A portion of the song is, “What can I say?  What can I do?  But offer this heart, oh God, completely to you…”  God is the only one I know that can fill me when I’m empty… turn my mourning into dancing (and has done that on many occasions)…and make what is seemingly devastating and hopeless, a joyful and monumentally life-changing event.  All of life’s afflictions are suddenly eclipsed by the overwhelming glory of God… and Ben and I know that if our afflictions, pains, and trials help other people who are struggling or hurting, and bring glory to God, it is always worth it.  Something that Ben and I have said since we began dating, and continually hold to today is, God’s plan is our plan!

“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13

Please continue to pray for the Martins.  We still mentally chew on things the doctor has said, have fears that this will return, and daily deal with the big question mark that is the future.  Although none of it is particularly fun to do, we know it is necessary for us at this moment.

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Worries of the Past January 26, 2010

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As we were putting Brinson to bed tonight, he was very apprehensive about us leaving his room. No doubt he remembers the countless times over the last few weeks that we have left in the night, only to not be here in the morning when he woke up.  He continued to call for us a couple of times, just to make sure we were still there, and once he finally was assured that we were still in the house, he fell asleep.

We had a very sweet day with him.  We came home to a little boy who seemed taller and older than when we left.  He learns things so quickly anyway, when his parents miss 5 days with him, it seems like an eternity.  He is using several new words this week, in context, which makes us very happy but there is also that twinge of sadness that we missed it. In the end, it’s a catch 22… what can you do?  We are grateful that he flourished upon our absence but also grateful to be home and in our rightful place as parents.

All in all, today was a very good day. Ben got caught up on his rest and feels pretty good.  I sense some major apprehension in his demeanor… a burden of wondering whether the shoe will drop today.  I have that in the back of my mind as well, but it is definitely affecting him more.  Who could blame him for feeling that way?  He has always realized the responsibility of being a husband and a father, and I’m sure he is feeling that more, in light of the current events.

Everyday we try to find something positive in these events, and I must say that I have realized that the LORD has blessed our marriage in such a way that these events grow us closer to one another.  I have never once thought of leaving all of this behind… Ben is my soul mate in every sense of the word, and without him (and his heart issues), I certainly wouldn’t be the woman I am today.  So, let me say… Thank you LORD for sharing Ben with me, and thank you Ben for loving me like only you can.  iloveyou, darlin’!

 

God Preparing My Heart

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On November 20th, I was in Austin, TX for my good friend Josh Myer’s wedding, and since I was so close to my grandmother, who lives in San Marcos, I went down there to visit her during some down time amidst the wedding hoopla.  My grandmother and I had a great visit and lunch together, and then I got in the car and went back to Austin to meet up with the groom and party.  That day it was raining very hard, and it was one of those rains that you have to turn the windshield wiper blades on the highest setting, and there are still moments you do not have good visibility.  I rarely slow down while driving but I remember on that day slowing because it was raining so hard that it was difficult to hear the radio, which if I was lucky it would have some Jay-Z on the air waves.  While driving slower and straining to make out what song was playing on the radio, I heard the prompting of God to turn the radio off and listen to the rain and have a conversation with Him.  I remember praying and listening to the rain while I was entering south Austin and truly feeling the presence of the Lord as I drove.

I want to preface this with the fact that I struggle with ooey and gooey “spirit” worship services that one would see on television.  However, while driving God gave me a very specific word… “One can look at rain in a way to only see that it creates mud and puts splotches on your car, that it can be annoying, loud, and ruin a sunny day… Or, rain can been seen as nourishment, nature’s way of cleaning, and bringing freshness.”  The pressure of the Lord was on me and gently nudging me to let me know that there was going to be rain in my life, and it was my decision to either look at it as ugly and complicated or as nourishment for my physical and spiritual life.

Fast forward through November (and all was good), and December (and all was good) to January when I am laying on a gurney with my heart rate up to 240 beats a minute, and at that moment I was not thinking about the rain.  However, after getting home and recuperating after my emergency room visit, I started to think about what was laid on my heart back in November.  This has been a very important process for my sanctification with Christ.  I will end with the same prayer I have prayed since leaving the E.R. the first time “Lord, if I have to go through this but it shows your Glory, draws me closer to You in my sanctification, and spreads the Gospel, I am in”

I say all of that to say this, I pray that the rain in your life will be viewed as nourishment and not has a hassle or inconvenience.

 

A Welcome Sight

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Ben and I were so eager to see Brinson this morning that we woke him up!  We couldn’t wait a minute longer to see his beautiful blue eyes, hold his soft little hands… get a big hug.  We are so GLAD to be home!  Brinson did so well while we were gone, and we must say a HUGE thank you to my mom and sister for coming and staying with him.  They pampered and loved on him, and he didn’t miss a beat!  Thank you Momma and Angie!

Ben had a good night’s sleep last night, and although the EP nurse said his new pacemaker settings might keep him awake for a day or two, Ben proved once again to be a professional sleeper and wasn’t fazed by it!  That is yet another way the LORD has worked in our lives!

We are having family time this morning and then Ben will try to go to work this afternoon.  Lord willing, the normalcy will begin and be sustained!

 

No Comfort Like Home January 25, 2010

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After some serious frustration with the medical field this morning, we finally got to get in our car and began the long trek home at 12:35 p.m.  Sadly, we did not make it home in time to see Brinson before he had to go to bed, and after some sulking, I got over it. We pulled in our driveway at 9:15 p.m… and not a minute too soon!

Let me tell you the last of what occurred in Houston.  Ben’s doctor decided that one more precaution needed to be taken to help eliminate anymore arrhythmia that might occur, so he had Ben’s pacemaker reset to 75.  What that means is anytime Ben’s heart rate falls below 75 beats per minute, the pacemaker will kick in and begin to pace at 75.  The doctor said when Ben’s heart rate goes too low, like while sleeping, it can cause it to actually react by beating too quickly thereafter… which is pretty much what was happening.  Each of the three major ER visits originated with arrhythmia that came from either sleeping or just at rest.  In other words, his heart rate was low when it began.  So, by resetting the pacemaker, they are trying to nip it in the bud before it can ever start.

Naturally, we are relieved to be out of the hospital and home tonight.  However, with great reason, Ben is still leery of getting too “comfortable” because we just never know if it will return.  The medicines are currently working, and we pray they will continue.  Please pray that Ben’s heart and mind would find some rest and comfort in the LORD.  Also, please pray that we can have some quality family time together with a great deal of “normalcy.”  We could certainly use it!

We’ll keep the blog updated with Martin family matters, and hopefully, the heart drama will settle out!  Thank you, friends, for your love and support! We love you all!

 

Heading Home

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Good news, friends!  Ben has been released from the hospital!  The doctors are pleased with how the medicine is working but have also built in a little cushion in case these arrhythmias reoccur.  We can go up on the med doses if need be… But hopefully we won’t need that.  Ben’s currently over at Texas Children’s waiting for an EP nurse to place a holter moniter, but she is in surgery for the next two hours, so we’re trying to see if he can just get one placed in Lubbock, so we can go home.  We’d like to be out of Houston by 11:15 a.m… which puts us home right before Brinson goes to bed.

Please continue to pray for Ben’s heart… that the medicines will work and that we will be able to resume life as usual.  In addition, please pray that his liver functions will improve over the next few months.  We have been given many prescriptions and are now armed with lots of new information to manage Ben’s heart condition.  We’re hoping for years of normalcy… or as normal as the Martins can get!

Pray for safe journeys as we high tail it (but stay withing the legal speed limit) home!  Lord willing, my next post will be from Snyder, America!

 

Waiting Within the Word

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Here we are on day 4 of our Houston hospital adventures waiting for the doctor to come and tell us we can go home.  Of course, I am impatiently watching the clock and trying to fill my minutes with meaningful things.  I have been planting myself within Hebrews for the last couple of days, and for me, it’s somewhat difficult to digest.  However, I like the challenge that it brings, and it takes me closer to the throne of God, where I can learn and enjoy His presence.  This morning, after all we have endured throughout the last two weeks, I am reminded of the hope we have in Christ Jesus.  I came across this verse in my scripture reading today, and it describes this hope of which I speak to a “t.”

Hebrews 6:19-20

“This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, a hope both sure and steadfast and one which enters within the veil, where Jesus has entered as a foreunner for us, having become a high priest forever.”

Wow… I must say, enduring hardships brings me closer to the realization that HOPE is real… Hope–the anchor of our souls… steadfast and sure… rooted in the reality of God- Shekinah Glory dweling behind the veil.   Wow!  I apologize for delving deep on the blog this morning, but God is working on Ashley Martin, and I know we do not go through circumstances for nothing, but to help those around us.  Maybe this will be an encouragement for someone reading this today.

Still no sign of a doctor this morning, but my heart yearns to be reunited with our son.  Of course, God knows what will happen today, and if we do not get home in time to see Brinson before he falls asleep, I will settle for being able to hear his soft breathing on the monitor while he sleeps… what comfort and joy those little sounds give us!

I’ll let you know when we get to leave and what the doctor says upon his arrival.   We love you, friends!