We are a week out from all the madness and the normalcy we prayed for has returned. There is much joy in daily routines and little habits! Ben has not had any episodes of arrhythmia over the past week, and we continually praise the LORD for holding his heart in His hands and regulating his rhythm. Ben has been able to work this week and was even lovingly able to serve as transporter for a group of high school boys at our church’s Disciple Now this weekend.
And with that beloved normalcy comes church on Sunday mornings. What a privilege it was to step into the house of the LORD today and get a moment, in the stillness and focused quiet, to say thank you again to the LORD for what He has done in our lives. I know I sit here, virtually on the other side of a scary three weeks and say that I praise the LORD, but the truth of the matter is that I praise the LORD because of the scary three weeks. As a believer, I am no stranger to adverstiy, trials, and hardships, but part of the beauty of being a believer is that there are joy in those moments because if we choose to focus on the LORD, we will find that we are being shaped and formed to be more like Jesus, we are being made stronger clay by being fired in intense heat, and sometimes, we are being pulled out of situations we put ourselves into, and being pulled out can be quite painful. All in all, today in worship, I was reminded of just how much Christ loves us.
Through the words of one of my favorite songs of worship, I was moved with the reminder that in all things, the appropriate response is to move TOWARD Jesus… He is our hope. A portion of the song is, “What can I say? What can I do? But offer this heart, oh God, completely to you…” God is the only one I know that can fill me when I’m empty… turn my mourning into dancing (and has done that on many occasions)…and make what is seemingly devastating and hopeless, a joyful and monumentally life-changing event. All of life’s afflictions are suddenly eclipsed by the overwhelming glory of God… and Ben and I know that if our afflictions, pains, and trials help other people who are struggling or hurting, and bring glory to God, it is always worth it. Something that Ben and I have said since we began dating, and continually hold to today is, God’s plan is our plan!
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13
Please continue to pray for the Martins. We still mentally chew on things the doctor has said, have fears that this will return, and daily deal with the big question mark that is the future. Although none of it is particularly fun to do, we know it is necessary for us at this moment.